Tuesday, December 26, 2006
` 3:53 AM
a year has passed . so many things happened during this time . it seems like yesterday when that incident happened. how have we coped? looking back. i found i have been dragging a long shadow all these while. i tried to brush past such forlorn memories to the back of my head. i failed. maybe i should accept that maybe it wont be forgotten for the rest of my life. all the have beens and the what ifs. a yr had passd yet i still cant really let it go. to think that i am the one who is still clutching to such memories...
many thanks to the ppl who wish me a merry xmas. special thanks to jj and kayan who sent me xmas cards. esp kayan. who sent frm hk haha. thanks for what you wrote inside your card. i totally agreed=). erm i sent u one too. but i guess u dint received eh. i think i dint buy enough money for the stamp =X.
thanks for the present you gave me yx! i love it very much. i hope you like the presents i gave you. i enjoyed my time with you counting down to xmas!
and i walked out of the room. thinking...
Monday, December 18, 2006
` 4:15 PM
on a weekday during 2004.
at nydc cafe at suntec city.
on a lazy afternoon after school.
"Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are.
I had to find you, tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.
Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions,
Oh lets go back to the start.
Running in circles, Comin' up Tails
Heads on a science apart.
Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.
Oh take me back to the start."
boy: hey this is a nice song...! the scientist by coldplay
girl was scooping ice cream and putting into her mouth.
girl: hmm ok leh. sounds so morbid haha.
boy: huh?! but the melody is nice. dont you think?
girl: hmm i prefer happier songs...
"I was just guessin' at numbers and figures,
Pulling your puzzles apart.
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart.
And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start.
Runnin' in circles, Chasin' up Tails
Comin' back as we are
Nobody said it was easy,
Oh it's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard.
I'm goin' back to the start."
and the memories go on and unravel in my mind..
Sunday, December 10, 2006
` 5:02 PM
chill out session at timbre with kenneth daryl and eugene was awesome. great company. great music. great atmosphere. drinks was gd. if life could be that wonderful.
caught the holiday with them too. jude law. cameron diaz. kate winslet. jack black. sweet and heart warming story and a tinge of sadness. jude law's eyes are really a killer lol.
heineken $17
vodka red bull $11
movie $10
cab $10
total $48
not a bad decision. it wld be $100+ if i was at MOS partying all night...
Saturday, December 09, 2006
` 9:52 AM
when people tell me that the best time in your entire life is during your studying days. your sec sch your jc life. when all you need to is to study and have absolute fun with your friends and heck care the world. i was totally put off by the advice then....
now as i stand to serve the fucking army and rotting my life away, i begin to realise the true essence of this sentence. we always appreciate things when it slips away frm your hands and is gone forever...
Sunday, December 03, 2006
` 9:10 PM
had a wild night at marcus hse last night. went over to his hse to have platoon bbq. friday we passed out and i became 3rd sgt posted to 20 SA. hopefully its more fun and untersting. almost the whole platoon attended except for some but who cares. went pasir ris to meet kenneth at arnd 4 and took bus there. he played tennis while i dipped into the pool with joseph kok siang william edmund. after that we went to the sauna to sort of heat ourselves up haha. we keep on adding water till our body were dripping with sweat. it was unbearable to stay inside a room of 58 degrees! went to play tennis after that. acty im nt bad man. can return a few shots at least compared to edmund : p. by this time. alot of ppl have arrived so we went back to the bbq pit and grabbed food. by the time we reached there. ppl were playing indian poker and drinkin vodka as a punishment. ppl were starting to get high esp danny who did a little pole dance on a chair! nxt was eugene who kept on slurring his words but insisted he was not drunk and he was fine. yi run was mixing the shots and drank alot. ian was busy hugging everyone and telling us how much he love each one of us. i drank arnd 10 cups but lucky i didnt KO then. maybe i have a high threshold of drunkness haha. everyone was in a state of highness. 2 litres of absolute vodka was gone. 24 cans of tiger were downed by us too. everyone was dunked into the pool and having fun even our sgt was nt spared. its been a long time since i was that mindless and plain having fun. this was the best platoon i ever had. when we made our way to marcus hse. i was lifting eugene and he was telling me in a haphazard and slurring manner what he did at MOS.
we watched the liverpool and mn u game over at marcus hse and we opene chivas to cont drinking. this time we stopped eugene frm drinking too much before he get really drunk haha.
well i guess this pretty much sums up my wild and enjoyable sat night. monday we will be reporting to our own new units. hope this night will nt be forgotten so easily. new unit. new environment. means boing. means having to evaluate the ppl arnd u again.
Saturday, December 02, 2006
` 3:22 AM
went to catch casino royale and flags of our fathers this week with my bunkmates. 2 different genre of films yet both struck similar chords in my heart.
casino royale is bullshit. lousy cheesy plot and alot of brainless action scenes. but i was amazed by the lifestyle of the rich ppl in the movie. bahamas. yachts. resorts. designer clothes. sports cars. casinos. its a lifestyle that i would nv even dreamt of having. its smth that is totally out of my expectations. they travel around the world like free. visit places of each part of the world like nobody business. while in reality im keepin my wallet in check haha. hmmm i hope when i grow up. one day im going to enjoy my life jus like how they did in the movie. i want to be treated like them. i want to be served. which means i have to start savin up like freak.
fags of our fathers was a better show. talks bout the whole definition of what is a HERO. talks bout moral conduct. it is centred around a photograph which showed 6 soldiers raising and planting the american flag on the soil of iwo jima. it gave an illusion that america is winning the war and the country asked its ppl to but war bonds and halp the country to but more war machines. 3 ppl were shipped back to help with the campaign. they were being labelled heros. one was cool bout it but dint really like the attention. one was the opposite. he was everywhere where the camera went. his fiance was equally attention seeking. however the last one could not take the burden of being labelled as a hero and basically self destructed through alcohol. deep down their hearts. they were not fit to be labelled as a hero cos they knew the real heros were the ones fighting out there and dying for the country. so they did what they could by pleading more ppl to buy bonds to help raise the 14 billion dollars needed to keep america going. it talked bout how each 3 different characters react to the same situation. its interesting. the japanese version is out nxt feb. talks frm the japanese pt of view.
last week of course man. gonna miss the ppl here in signals. lifes like that. takes the nicest things away when your jus bout the keep it.
20 SA here i come. 3rd sgt kwa